C6 and B3

My boyfriend brought me to his gathering dinner last night. Well, I know almost all of them, except for several people, and one of them was actually his "previous one". I've met her in several occasions but we haven't really talked and I haven't really looked at her THAT properly...

Oh my God...

She's such a beauty...

Look-wise, I admit a defeat. Like really, every thing about her is just perfect (sounds like lesbian huh?). And I told him that his eyes are REALLY good, such a nice catch. Not saying that I'm not a nice catch but honestly, LOOK-WISE, I give her 9 out of 10 while I give myself 5 out of 10.

A1 for her, C6 for me...

But according to him, HEART-WISE, I'm so much better than her. I told him that too, regarding him and Ray. That I've loved him deeper than I loved Ray last time. I don't know whether he believed it or not, well, I hope he did...and he'll always does. Because really, I recognise this feeling. The feeling when I can be twice happier when he's happy and feel twice of his sadness when he's sad. When I cry when he cries, though I'm not supposed to do it. Well, so far I still think that I'm not good enough as a girlfriend because I can't really be a pole when he needs someone to lean on...

So yeah, heart-wise, I give myself a B3. All people say it's good, very good, but it's actually a failure to get a distinction...

Well, I don't know, really...I'm just...

Sigh...