Sayang, I Miss You...

Well, I'm supposed to study MedSoc right now but for some reason I'm kinda sian over it already so yeah, here I am blogging...

I MISS MY SAYANG!!!

Like...I've just met him 3 days ago? But I miss him like I've not met him for 1 month, am I losing my mind or something? It's like...I DON'T KNOW!!! I don't recognise this feeling, I've never missed someone to this extent before. Not my ex-boyfriends, not Nimo, not even the famous Mr Ray Hadinata.

Probably because he's the only one who can love me this way...

Boy what have you done?

Why am I crazy over you?

What have you told me?

Why do I miss your voice?

Is it because you're the only one

who can love me this way?

Or is it because

we're just fated to be together?

You stole my heart

with that gorgeous smile

You made me drop on my knee

with those sweet words...

You look inside me

your eyes penetrate mine

You whisper gently

saying, "I miss you"...

Boy look at me

look into my eyes

Thank you for everything that you've done,

only you can make me fall in love...

Boy listen to me

listen to my request

Please be happy and don't worry about me,

'cos that's the only thing that makes me happy...

You stole my heart

with that gorgeous smile

You made me drop on my knee

with those sweet words...

You look inside me

your eyes penetrate mine

You whisper gently

saying, "I miss you"...

I don't even know if this is a song or not because I just can't find the right melody, so for the time being can we pretend that this is just a mere poem?

When You Say "I Do"

Thanks to yesterday's studying session with Kai Yee and the discussion about her marriage at the age of 23, I've been imagining myself as her maid of honour for one whole day today...

Really, I was imagining myself standing behind her at the church altar, beside her was her "Mr Right", and then she'll say "I do"...

Beautiful, huh?

Dear my best friend,

you look so beautiful today,

in that white dress,

holding his hand tightly...

Babe your face is gleaming,

such a delight to see you like this,

such an honour to be by your side,

after all these years, here I am...

Blessing you with my all,

watching you slowly reciting the vow.

Smiling broadly, whispering my bless for you,

when you say "I do"...

Babe do you know something?

When I hug you at the changing room just now,

I wanted to thank you,

for allowing me to be the special one...

I wanted to tell you how lucky I am,

to have such a best friend like you,

that's why, that's why now,

here I am...

Blessing you with my all,

watching you slowly reciting the vow.

Smiling broadly, whispering my bless for you,

when you say "I do"...

This is going to be the song that I'm going to sing if I really am her maid of honour when she gets married...

When you say "I do"...

I Miss My Sweet Seventeen!

(@ SingPost Mac, studying...)

Oh my fucking God...

I'M TIRED!!!

Probably this is what I get from straining myself for the past 2 weeks. I can barely open my eyes now, while I'm actually still having Marketing worksheet to do. 52 MCQs are really killing when I'm fucking tired and sleepy, seriously...

How I wish I still have my sweet seventeen energy...

I talked to Kai Yee about our life back at Sec 4. She TOTALLY AGREE about how strong we were back then. I told her how I could actually sleep four hours per day for one whole year and go school do whatever activities until late, and then went back home and took a shower and then continued with my study UNTIL LATE and then wake up SUPER EARLY and so on and so on...

Now I want to wake up at 7 am also oversleep until 8 am...

Really, I think it's either I'm getting old (which probably is) or I've been restraining myself to much during Oooss...AND WHAT THE HELL??? BLACKOUT AT MAC??? NOW???

Oh my...

Marketing, even though I've got A for my coursework, I still hate you...

Getting Worse and Worse

Yes, my illness is not getting better. Instead it's getting worse and worse and worse...

It's been getting better for the last two days. I don't know why today I woke up with nausea and the ulcer at the back of my tongue hurts so badly that I wanted to vomit.

I gave up and took the antibiotic medicine. But at the same time I need to take the gastric medicine as well if I don't want to be hospitalised. The stupid antibiotic medicine is power, really, but it will be damn dangerous for my gastric as I've just recovered from gastric pain...

Tell me, how am I supposed to study in this condition?

Gotta go to sleep now, hope that I'll get better after sleep...

TKSS, A Memory...

I cried myself to sleep last night...

Thanks to For The First Time by The Script and my trip back to TKSS yesterday, my tears just wouldn't stop flowing for one whole night...

The hall was awkwardly empty. I remembered how we squeezed last year during teacher's day celebration, I still remember the outfit that I wore on that day (flowery top with 7/8 white pants), and I still have all the pictures from last year's celebration, K-Box, Pastamania with Mr Yee, trying on shades with Kai Yee...

All the memories just struck my mind wildly. I went to 4E1 classroom with Kai Yee and Diep and was astonished by the new colour of the wall. And we found a "changing room" at the back of the classroom, just like what we had when we were back in 3E1

"I miss the smell of this classroom," said Kai Yee.

And yeah, 3E1...

When I woke up yesterday morning, I've promised myself that if I met Novia at school I'd look into her eyes and gave her my best smile. I wanted to tell her that I've really forgiven her now, that I wanted to start everything all over again, at the place where we started everything two years ago...

Too bad, I didn't see her at all...

Seems like this is a punishment for me; but this is just too cruel. I saw almost everyone in the school, but why couldn't I see her? I heard her family now is not doing as well, I wanted to ask how is she doing now? It's her Oos...year, a very crucial time of her life. I just want to know if someone who used to draw a smile on my lips is doing well or not.

Is that too much that I'm asking for?

Really, if God gives me another chance to see her, I'll definitely look into her eyes and give her my best smile. Even though it's a good bye smile, even though it's my last chance to see her, still, I'll give her my best smile.

We're smiling but we're close to tears, even after all these years, just now got the feeling that we're meeting...

For the first time...

C6 and B3

My boyfriend brought me to his gathering dinner last night. Well, I know almost all of them, except for several people, and one of them was actually his "previous one". I've met her in several occasions but we haven't really talked and I haven't really looked at her THAT properly...

Oh my God...

She's such a beauty...

Look-wise, I admit a defeat. Like really, every thing about her is just perfect (sounds like lesbian huh?). And I told him that his eyes are REALLY good, such a nice catch. Not saying that I'm not a nice catch but honestly, LOOK-WISE, I give her 9 out of 10 while I give myself 5 out of 10.

A1 for her, C6 for me...

But according to him, HEART-WISE, I'm so much better than her. I told him that too, regarding him and Ray. That I've loved him deeper than I loved Ray last time. I don't know whether he believed it or not, well, I hope he did...and he'll always does. Because really, I recognise this feeling. The feeling when I can be twice happier when he's happy and feel twice of his sadness when he's sad. When I cry when he cries, though I'm not supposed to do it. Well, so far I still think that I'm not good enough as a girlfriend because I can't really be a pole when he needs someone to lean on...

So yeah, heart-wise, I give myself a B3. All people say it's good, very good, but it's actually a failure to get a distinction...

Well, I don't know, really...I'm just...

Sigh...

In Love With Mr Kudou Shinichi

Like duh! I've been in love with him for AGES!!! Just that all those stupid projects disallowed me to watch him for the past six months, and today was the day when I could finally reunite with my husband.

OH MY GOD! He's just as awesome as always! And yeah, Akai Shuichi has made his second appearance after his "death". Basically I believe that the one we all think as Shuu is not Shuu himself, instead Okiya Subaru is Shuu. I don't know, I just have that feeling, judging from the way he talks and staffs. Moreover, he drank Bourbon on episode 510, which is Shuu's favourite alcohol. I mean really, Gosho is just trying to twist here and there by making the new BO agent's code name is Bourbon. He's just trying to confuse us I guess.

"To those who are waiting for their prey patiently, I'd like to treat them a hot, bitter coffee..."

Will someone from BO says something like THIS about Gin???

Damn no...

And yeah, Okiya called them "a pack of black wolves who lost their easy prey..." AND CONAN SMILED!!! Like seriously WEIRD!!! I mean I've found it super weird since the first time Conan lent his house to Okiya, despite the fact that Ai was freaking scared of Okiya and had a bad feeling that Okiya is someone from BO as she had that "feeling" during the arson case.

Someone who likes Holmes can't be bad...

Nonsense, that's not a reason Conan will throw, especially when it's about those black wolves...

And just now I watched episode 508 where Conan confessed to Eisuke that he's Kudou Shinichi. When Eisuke told Conan that someone from FBI might have died, Conan actually said "Yeah, everything is alright", while picturing Shuu in his mind.

IT MEANS HE KNOWS SHUU IS NOT DEAD!!!

And and...during the arson case. When the Detective Boys told him about the address of the little boy who asked for their help, he reacted as if he knew the address...

That's Okiya Subaru's house, isn't it?

So yeah...FOR GOODNESS' SAKE!!! Let Okiya be Shuu!

OMG...I think the title of today's post is supposed to be "In Love With Mr Silver Bullet" instead...