Have you ever fell for somebody that has been taken?
And have you finally got his love, eventhough you are only his other GF?
Or worse, he is your other BF?
I have...
His name is Hadinata Ardiansyah (not his true name, of course). I met him at the first day of Junior High School grade 9 in the classroom. Believe it or not, I used to hate him so much...but at the end I wanted him badly until I decided to leave my boyfriend and be his stead. But not until one month I knew that I wasn't the only girl in his heart...then I left him. After about two or three months, he told me that he'd left "that girl", and he wanted me to be his stead again. And I accepted it, although I never said "Yes, you're my boyfriend", at least people knew that he's my boyfriend.
When finally he loved me, we were together, things had changed...
He wasn't as sweet as I thought, he wasn't as nice as I thought, he wasn't as gentle as I thought, or in conclusion, I was dissappointed when I found out that he's not that perfect...that he's not the one for me...and he didn't want me as bad as I wanted him...
Now, after one year, after I've forgotten him, after I've given my heart to somebody else, after I think my life is perfect without him, he wants me again...
I heard this from my friend who's his friend also. I chat with him this afternoon, and suddenly the topic was about him. I also don't know what was on my mind ; I asked my friend whether Ardian still like me or not. And yeah...guess what? He said yes, he still likes me...
Even now he wants me badly, worse than what I did last year. And I asked my friend, why? Why now? After one year...after my heart is not for him anymore...why not that time when I was desperate with him? Then my friend just simply said, "Things are always like that...regret always comes at the end, not at the beginning or in the middle itself"
If I'm allowed to be mean, I'll tell him that I don't care anymore about him, whether he still loves me or not, even if he said he'll kill himself if I have new BF also I don't care. But anyhow, I can't say it. He was special for me, and he was so nice to me either. I felt the hurt of being thrown away by my ex - boyfriend, and I don't want to do the same thing to other people.
But it makes me confuse now. I don't like him, but I don't want to hurt him at the same time...What should I do???
