I took out the necklace from Ray on May 2010...
I texted him, saying that I wanted to move on and stop loving him as more than just a good friend. His responds was quite awkward; he said it's okay but he changed into a whole different person for around 2 months after that night.
So what was the thing that finally knocked some senses into my head after two years?
My prince. My saviour.
I met him 2 days after my eighteenth birthday during TPIS outing to Singapore Discovery Centre. I had heard a lot about him from another people in TPIS before eventually saw him in person as he was the ex - president of the club. No impression was given during our first meeting as we didn't even TALK (I was craving for lunch, yeah...) but thanks to my Nokia 6600 fold that stuck in the bus during our second meeting, we started to talk.
I guess new media has brought advantages for he and I to know each other better even though we barely met each other at that point of time. He added my Facebook (or I added him, I don't know ^_^) and we started to talk on MSN and all those stuffs, and suddenly I began to blurt out about Mr Ray Hadinata and he began to pour me with his stories as well (some of them brought tears into my eyes, really, I adore him so much even until now), and without knowing it, he'd become a part of my life.
We played a game. One day boyfriend girlfriend relationship. A love game. Two retards were playing with fire matches, without knowing that it'd form a firework. A big and beautiful one.
It's all started just like that. Suddenly he just occupied every nanometres of my heart without allowing anyone to snatch it from him. Suddenly I found someone who had gone through more than I had, who taught me to be strong, who told me to look forward instead of into the past...
There's a reason why God gives you two eyes in front. They are there for you to look forward instead of backward...
I swear I will never forget those words till my last breath...
He told me that I saved him from loving someone blindly. Little he knows that HE was the one who saved me, not only from loving someone blindly, but also from everything that might rip away all the happiness of my life. Some nights I just lie down with my eyes wide opened and wondering how could he survive all his pasts, and suddenly I realised that a drop of tears have fallen on my pillow...
That's why now I always remind him that I'm not here as a decoration. I'm here for him to share his problems, to share his happiness, to share his tears, his smile, his laughs, everything...And I'll also try to treat him as a boyfriend, not a decoration, too.
Such a long wait, but it worth the wait. He told me that now I love him more than he does. I laughed, and jokingly said I really do, that's why he needs to buck up. LOL! But no, really, I want to pay back all the sadness and loneliness that he used to have with the same amount of happiness.
Because he saved me, because he's my inspiration, someone that can turn me 180 degrees. From a girl who believed that having a boyfriend equals to wasting money, wasting time and wasting energy, into a girl who now believe that having a boyfriend is such a bliss. Only he can do it. No one else can.
But I know I still have a long way to really understand about him the way he understands me. I'm such a lousy girlfriend that I can't even differ whether he's really angry or he's faking (irritating bastard, he knows I'm bad at this and he purposely did it several times -.-"') Well, at the very least, I'll try my best to love him. Simply give him all the love that I have.
Make simple love simple. That's all.
True. As simple as that...
