When I opened my Friendster just now, I saw a new comment in my friend's profile made by herself. It says , "I asked God to give me a pretty flower, but he gives me an ugly plant. I asked God to give me a butterfly, but he gave me an ugly caterpillar. But when time goes on, the ugly plant gives its prettiest flower, and the caterpillar changes into butterfly. I believe that God will give us the good thing at the right time, even when something bad happens to us there will be another good thing behind it."
Do you believe it?
I do...
My aunt passed away several days ago. I was speechless when I heard this news. Then I told Daniel, Irwan, and Novia about this. They were shocked, I don't know, I think so...Daniel is the first who knew because I was with him, then Novia, then at night I called Irwan and told him. I forced myself not to cry, but I couldn't help it. I hope Irwan never realised that I was crying on phone that time, but I think realise or not, he'll know at last if he reads this post.
But yeah...my aunt's death makes me realise about something that I always doubts for these perfect seven months. I was never sure whether Daniel, Irwan, and Novia really care for me. But now, there's no more doubts left behind. They are the one who have made me smiled again, I remember I called Novia at midnight just to tell her that I missed my aunt, she's the one who said that I'm gonna be OK, I remember Daniel asked me whether I cried or not before we went out that day, I remember Irwan tried to make me laugh at Chemistry Project by singing Andra & The Backbone's song, playing with window's opener, told me not to out of my mind or else my mind will be taken by ghost...everything.
That's it...everything that I've never had before...free times with my friends (I never had my own time when I was in Indonesia...poor thing...), going out with boys (I never went out with my boyfriend before...), having good friends...now I have everything. Feels like now I'm getting my rose and my butterfly that I asked from God before...
