October 2008, for goodness's sake!!!
Well, throughout the year 2009 a lot of things had happened, and I guess I'm going to make a summary about all those things here...
January 2009,
The last year of my Secondary School was started with a very bad incident. Miss Novia Sandy, my best and most lovely best friend left me for her good-for-nothing boyfriend. My world turned upside down overnight, and I could do nothing except for crying on my bed while on phone with Irwan.
February 2009,
My wound had not been healed, yet I got a new wound above it. After Novia, now it's Daniel. I had suicidal thought and I would've done it if Irwan didn't remind me of how many people out there love me.
March 2009,
1 March 2009, my cousin brother passed away due to a motorcycle accident.
I broke down...
Seems like 2009 is a cursed year for me, isn't it?
I became a soulless individual, came to school without smile, do all my things without any thoughts...
I'm just...
Sad...
April 2009,
Well, at least this year is my sweet seventeen year. I had barbecue party with my friends and classmates, and I really enjoyed it, kind of a little bit too much because I needed to numb my bleeding heart due to recent bad incidents.
Ray gave me a necklace, and on that night I swore that I'd never take out that necklace until I found someone who can replace him in my heart...
Which I didn't know when...
May 2009,
Two months had passed since the last day my cousin drew his last breath, but I still cried every time I opened his Facebook profile. I asked Kai Yee how long did she need to recover from the sadness after her mom passed away, and she said the first several months were really torturous.
Things turned out better I guess, at least now I started to find good friends again. And I started to be able to forget about those two who had wasted a good one year of my time.
I loathed them, I really did...
June 2009,
O Level was coming in several months and Prelim was just at the corner. I've submitted my DPA to Temasek Poly and hoped against hope that I'm going to be accepted there ^^
I received a message from Daniel today. He said he regretted and he wanted me to be his friend again...
My reply: Dream on and wait until the sun rises from the West...
July 2009,
Oh man...
No DPA for me, T.T
Gotta wait for JAE to get into my Communications and Media Management...
Something really went wrong between Ray and I. We're getting further and further, and we had more and longer cold wars nowadays. Even though now I've had Kai Yee, Diep and Ray as my close friends, I wouldn't be able to endure the pain if I had to lose Ray...
August 2009,
What the F***??? A2 for MALAY?!
-.-"'
And THIS Ray Hadinata is really such an ASSHOLE!!!
Kau menggantungkan hubungan ini,
Kau diamkan aku tanpa sebab,
Maunya apa?
Ku harus bagaimana?
September 2009,
O Level in one month time. And in one month time as well, my Secondary School life would be ended.
Goodbye dream land, welcome real life...
A bunch of pictures had been taken, a lot of words were written all over the books, all those smiles, all those laughters...
I'm so gonna miss Telok Kurau Secondary School, especially because it's closing down at the end of next year...
Well, it doesn't even matter now that Ray and I are still having cold war. I'm kinda used to it now...
October 2009,
26 October 2009, English O Level. Hope I'll get B3 so that I could go to CMM TP. And I have a WEIRD WEIRD feeling that my love for Ray started to decline. The fact that we've just recovered from our 3 months of cold war, I didn't feel THAT happy. There were even times when I forgot to put on the necklace...
November 2009,
Class chalet!!! 18 November, Ray's 16th birthday but he couldn't come because his leg was crippled...
But I didn't feel sad for that....
WEIRD!!! I mean c'mon, even though his leg had recovered, the fact that he wasn't with me on his special day would've made me at least a bit emo wasn't it? But I felt nothing, I felt as happy and as high like I always be during barbecue party.
What
the
hell
is
this?
And my cousin's birthday was on the next day. I spent one whole night staring at the starry sky on the beach, hoping to see a shooting star and I would make a wish, which is to see him in person and say, "Happy Birthday..."
December 2009,
I'm back home, waiting for O Level result to come out. Ray had been MIA for around 1 month, and I didn't miss him at all, or checking on his FB to let me know if he's alright or not...
I guessed I would take out this necklace anytime soon...
Yeah whoa!!! A lot, really...I couldn't even fit in all the things happened during year 2009, but that's basically it. Gotta have a date with Mr. Marketing so I'm signing out now!!!
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