Deeply in Love...

I got this sentence from Ms. Liy, my Chemistry teacher, far before I like Ray. But now, I realise that it's exactly what happen to me now...

I am DEEPLY IN LOVE with RAY!!!

This is something that I must remember for the whole of my life. Never try to play with love, never try to like somebody just to make me excited to go to school, because at the end I'll love the person truly. This had happened three years ago, with my first ex-boyfriend (see? At the end I was deeply in love with him also right?) But now I repeat it again, and the same thing happens again.

Sometimes I feel I'm not good enough for Ray. I realised it yesterday. I was going out with him to a place (I can't say where, in case Ray read my blog then he realise that "Ray" is him, and that means I die). Then I looked around, seems like some girls were looking at him, but no guys looked interested in me. I felt underestimated, it feels like being Prince Charming and Cinderella before she became the princess. I felt so ugly compared with him which is DAMN handsome (even my mom says so). Daniel said I have to be confident, but how come? Novia just laughed, I think she had no idea what to say. And Irwan, hmmm...well I never tell him who the hell Ray is, but I think he's already been so curious now and maybe, he's already known who's Ray.

Yesterday I was chatting with Daniel. I forgot what we were talking about, but at one point I was talking about me, Harvey, Irene, and Andreas. Then that time, I realised. How come that story is EXACTLY the same like what happen to me now? I have three bestfriends, one of them is a girl and the other two are boys. Is this the second chance that I always ask God to give me? Is it the answer of my pray everynight? Pray so that I can repeat the time when I was still with them and correcting my mistake so that we were not separated like now?

If the answer is YES, then thank God! It means he gives me the second chance, the time that I waste with my ex-boyfriend and bestfriends, the chance to correct all mistakes I made, and have a different end of story with Daniel, Irwan, and Novia.

Seems like my deeply in love is not only for Ray, but for three of them also...

Bye!